Today, January 12, I turn 50. 50 years old! It seems like an odd age to be. I think it’s because in my head, I still feel like I’m in my 20’s. I’m sure lots of folks have thought this. Now my body on the other hand definitely feels 50…or over!
I don’t freak out over birthdays. I didn’t stress about 30 or 40, but 50 has officially freaked me out. It’s not the actual age…I realize you’re only as young as you feel. I think it’s that I always thought my life would be in a different place at this age. Not that I don’t love my life! I’m truly lucky. I just thought a few things would be different.
I have no doubt that everyone has that one birthday that makes them reflect on their life. For me, 50 is the birthday. Everyone’s life is different, but I thought at this age I’d be married with kids. Or at least married. Or at least in a stable relationship. LOL! Big NO on all mentioned.
I found out at 35 I couldn’t have kids. My last marriage was a nightmare. And my last relationship was definitely not stable. Not that anyone has to have anything particular at any age, or be at a certain stage in life, I just thought some things in my life would be different.
Reflection is odd for me because I’m a “keep on going” kind of chick no matter what. Maybe it’s the birthday, my most recent breakup and some other events that have happened lately that has made me a bit bummed about this birthday. I think I thought I’d be more of a “grown up” at this age if that makes sense. LOL! Maybe I should feel thankful that I’m not. I mean, true adulting can be a total pain!
As with any moment of reflection, my stress and anxiety will pass. I will say that turning 50 allows me to share this skit. This was one of of my favorite SNL skits with Molly Shannon. Good stuff!
Enjoy! I’m gonna go eat some cake and see if that helps. Can’t hurt, right?! Have a great week!