Moment With Mel: Lack Of Patience
This whole week I’ve been a bit out of sorts. I’ve been angrier than normal. Things are just annoying me more than usual. I had a few steroid shots last week so that might be why. It could also be the meds I’m on for breast cancer. Since my cancer was hormone generated, I’m on meds to stop the production of estrogen. But it could be something else too.
I went to get my hair done today and I was chatting with my hairdresser Paige about my lack of patience. On Thursday I was coming down some stairs in our work parking lot and some Aveda students were coming up the stairs. I slid to the right so we could all get by. The students didn’t move at all….they just didn’t care that someone else was using the stairs. I, of course, opened my big mouth and said “excuse me” and just stopped and looked at them.
Now, usually this situation wouldn’t bother me that much. But Thursday it just pissed me off. When I told my hairdresser the story, she gave me another reason why my patience is suddenly so thin: lack of contact. She said that since the pandemic began, I’ve kind of been isolated from people. Covid first, then the whole spinal fusion thing, and then breast cancer. My immune system is weak, so I’ve made sure not to go out lots and socialize.
It hit me later that she has a good point! I may be socially awkward now. I’ve spent so much time alone the last two years that I may be the one that is the problem. I think I’ve seen my friends twice in the last two years. I see Phil and Jack daily and a few people at work, but that’s it. Poor Phil hears WAY too much about my life because he’s the person I’m closest to right now.
The months of isolation and staying home have made me overly sensitive to everyday things. Things that aren’t a big deal have become a big deal to me because I’ve become a bit anti-social. I think the meds contribute to my lack of patience but I also think some of it is just lack of human interaction.
I feel like I had a therapy session! LOL! That said, today’s chat with my hairdreser has made me realize I may NEED some therapy. Gonna look into that!
